Sunday, March 29, 2009

Weekly update.....

I know any mom-to-be has an "anxious spirit" when it gets towards the end of the road, however, I feel like my anxiousness is almost driving me mad.  I don't like feeling this way and I begin to question why I am feeling this way.  Then I am reminded.....since 28 weeks of pregnancy I have had weekly cervical ultrasounds, weekly doctor "checks", weekly conversations on the "what if" if the baby were to come early, been in the hospital 3 times to stop contractions I wasn't even feeling, taken medicine to stop the "ghost contractions" that made me feel like I was having a heart attack, and the lovely confinement to home/bed with a 1 and 1/2 year old showing me a new definition to "terrible ones".  I am anxious.  I know that the next part will not be any easier, in fact, probably much much more difficult, but I feel like I have lived week to week for an all too long while now.  Here I sit at 38+ weeks pregnant, dilated to a 4, 60% effaced going "Seriously!"  All this worry and he is still hanging in there!

But at the same time it has allowed me to stop and really put into perspective life.  I have been very humbled in the past few days.  I have been living my life week to week, while God is trying to remind me to live day to day.  I have been so consumed by what tomorrow or the next day will bring, that I am forgetting to enjoy what God has given me growing inside me, a beautiful toddler that I only have days with just him and me left, a small amount of peace to my days when he is napping (which I know with two will be diminished shortly), time with my husband as a family of three, nights of full 7-8 hours of sleep, not to mention God's daily blessings to us.....I could go on and on.  So as this new era of my life will inevitably begin in the next few weeks....or days....if not hours.....I am thankful for today, God's love, and his endless blessings!  

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Today I got to help mommy bake brownies for Grandaddy.  He had knee replacement surgery and is in the hospital!  I hope they make him all better!  It was SO MUCH FUN!

Friday, March 13, 2009

A Few Updates....

I love this picture.  We have hung it in the baby's room.  Baker is in love with the belly.  He pats it, kisses it, and tries to give the baby his milk.  I think he is a little confused, or curious, as he is now lifting everyone's shirt to see their belly.  I am also finding unusual things in the bassinet, so hopefully he won't kill the baby as Baker enjoys throwing things in there.  And....we think we have a name!!!  But if you know us...then you know us!  We will let everyone know when we are 100% certain!

We finally took Baker's one year pictures.  These were just a few favorites.  He is growing so much and so full of life.  He is such a joy for sure!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

I love snow!!

It is so sad that this was the biggest snow we have had in years and Mommy is big, pregnant, and without child.  Baker spent the weekend with his "Dee and Pop Pop" as he calls them.  Their original names were supposed to be "Dee Dee and Pop".  He decided to change it up!  Mommy did not believe the weather man about the amount of snow so she did not send Baker with appropriate clothing...notice the socks on his hands for gloves.  Don't think it stopped him from enjoying it!  Dee said that when Pop Pop would stop pulling him on the sled he would make his sign for "more, more".  I hated missing out on this special time, but I am trying to look out for Baby #2 as well.

Speaking doctor appointment this week left me in the hospital for monitoring.  I was having contractions (which I could not feel....but I had progressed in dilation so my doctor was concerned) so was given shots to stop them and sent home with the pill version of the shots.  The medicine made me feel terrible....bed ridden for two days.  So they have me on a different kind now.  It is my first day of taking it, so I pray this one allows me to function and take care of Baker!  All in all, we're hanging in there!  We go to the doctor again Friday so I will update more soon!