Baker started school!

I'm not sure whose heart broke more this morning.....Baker's or Mommy's. Baker would NOT put on his backpack or carry his lunchbox. So maybe one day he will and I can "recreate" that first day of school picture. This was the best we could do. He had to "show" Elmo his backpack before we could leave. I am so excited for Baker because I know that he will benefit greatly from this opportunity, but I can't help but feel very sad at the moment. Josh told me that they call it "Mother's Day Out" for a reason and I need this too! I'm sure I do, but I definitely miss my baby!

A few highlights...

Sometimes I get on kicks and really do well with updating our blog. This month has not been one of those times. Here is a few pics to let you all know what has been going on in the Watson world!



A few professional pics we had made. Caleb is so huge it makes me laugh! Baker wasn't into them at all!


Gator fun with some of our favorite friends....the Darnells.

Bed time fun!

My angel! It is hard to resist this face!

Baker doesn't love to share toys! he likes to climb in the walker and fly around the house.

My Beautiful Ending...

I stumbled upon a song yesterday that has sort of written itself on my heart...so much so that I felt compelled to blog about it.  In so many ways I have never felt more convicted.  I feel, especially recently, that I have been battling a lot of my own selfishness and pride....only looking at life by what is presenting itself on my doorstep at the time.  I feel like I have never more clearly felt the devil's pull challenging my heart and my thoughts.  But when I look closer, I realize that I am the one allowing that door to be opened by my own selfishness.

"And it scares me to think, that I would choose my life over You.  My selfish heart divides me from you.  It tears us apart."

Can you say conviction?  But the song also challenges me....to dig deeper.  It pushes me to think past the present to what we are really here for...what is our purpose.  When I hear the chorus, 

"So tell me, what is our ending?  Will it be beautiful, so beautiful?  Will my life, find me by your side?  Will it be beautiful, so beautiful?"

I stop an think about what is real.  Where do I want to be when my life is all said in done?  Will I have made it past all the hard, challenging times and stood strong?  Stood for what I deep down, truly cling to as truth, and not get lost in my own wants and desires.  I once heard that there are no sidelines on a battefield....you have to pick a side, you have to pick up your sword and fight one way or another.  So although this battle may be difficult, I have to see this life for what it truly is....just a stopping point on my journey....in hope and faith that I will find my beautiful ending.  I want to know...at the end of it all...that I did not fail Him.

"At the end of it all, I wanna be by your side."   

Giggles, Giggles, Giggles

Gotta love what kids do when you aren't looking!

Our church outfits!

The love before the beating!

Our Gator Fans...

I love to laugh at Mommy!

4 months old today!

Gators are # 1!!!

It is hard to believe that Caleb is already four months old.  He did wonderfully at his check up today, weighing in at a whopping 16 lbs. 8 oz.  He dropped from the 90th percentile to the 80th.  Still a big boy.  He is such a happy baby, only crying when he is hungry or tired.  It has been a refreshing change from how Baker was as a baby.  Baker does not love Caleb too much right now.....just ask him, he will tell you.  However, he is slowly warming up to him.  He does kiss him goodnight now and actually says that he is sorry after he comes up and hits him.  Baker is FULL of himself.  We are definitely seeing the beginnings of the "Terrible 2's" when he does not get what he wants.  However, we are working on our manners and he does pretty well using them....after he screams at me and I give him "the look".  He knows all his colors and is learning his letters.  He can tell you A, I, O, U (we lost the E...oops), Y, L, D, B, V, G, J, S, N....random I know, but he gets to pick one letter out a day to put on the fridge.  He can also tell you (among the common animal sounds) what a peacock and a donkey says, which makes me laugh because only a child whose grandparents live on a farm would know that.  I have definitely struggled with finding a lot of time for me during the day, especially for reading.  So one thing I have tried to start doing is read a small portion of the bible aloud while we are eating breakfast in the mornings.  We have only done it for a week, but Baker seems to enjoy it.  I hope this is something that will become a tradition in our household b/c it definitely gets our day off to a good start!  All in all....Life is good!  We are still learning to be a family of 4 and learning how to do that well.  With each challenge we face, we find joy in the morning!

"Flawed and Fabulous"

I found this picture and thought that it was a great prediction of what will most likely happen to Caleb when he begins playing with Baker!

I read an article yesterday titled "Flawed and Fabulous Moms."  Reading it was like a breath of fresh air......it gave me the freedom to be human and the encouragement that all moms, although flawed, are still fabulous in their own way.  A friend once told me that she felt like when you become a new mom they shoot you with some guilt serum before you leave the hospital.  I couldn't relate more.  Today's plate of guilt would include feeding Baker Sonic for lunch, snapping at him for "screaming" in the car, spanking him for hitting his brother, taking a long overdue phone call and letting him watch tv in his high chair....and it is only nap time.  It saddens me when my list of "guilts" sometimes outweighs the praises.  But then I remember....I am human, I am flawed.....and I remind myself that I have hugged him, I have kissed him, danced with him, laughed, practiced our letters and colors, fed him, and kept him safe and clean.  And I remember that that is why God gave me the gift of my children....to love them in the best way I know how and still be fabulous while doing so! 

Family Fun on the 4th!

Take me to the river....

Baker's 2nd canoe trip and he is already steering the boat.  He would not let mommy hold the paddle at all.

Pool Time 

You can tell by both my boy's faces that they had two very different opinions of playing in the pool.

(This is the Caleb's priceless "pouting" face I have been trying to get a picture of for weeks.  He is going to get whatever he wants one day isn't he?  He already knows how to work mommy over!)

Baker loves his boots, his swing, and deviled eggs (5 minutes later.....it was all in his hair).